#senja

kenapa its so difficult buat saya to be akhwat sesungguhnya menurut versi objektif orang banyak? kenapa aku alay? sangat tidak mature dan childish? liat aja blognya sampah -.-

-kegalauan jati diri

#tilas

haha, sebenarnya blog ini tempat sampis.

haha, point where i believe no one read

haha, super intisari sampah dari diri yang gamau diliat nyampah

haha, this trash is going nowhere

leaving myself laughing (at my self)

hopes no one knows, #supersampah

"dan saya percaya, puing memori punya mozaiknya sendiri. ia memang sengaja diingat, memang harus diingat dengan caranya masing masing, dengan rasanya. dan tanpa sadar mendefinisikan mozaik diri . it define who you are. rapuh? mungkin. namun indah dengan kumpulan rasa, kalau bukan indah mungkin dinamis"

-saya bulan januari

00:00

till the last duar sound, finally i'm holding my self. yaaay

limbic system rules, sooca case 5 : 

memory is thought , stimulation of certain parts of MY nervous system at the same time. encoding then storing lastly retrieving. 

life is series of event, action, accumulation of feeling that we experience ourself. we do memorize it we called it declarative  memory. 

this kind of memory, is the long term one. the one that we can remember life long, spread out in a wide range of our brain. retrieving this also not difficult. may come from nowhere and suddenly synapse started to runnning like crazy in the cortex where it is stored and in no time arrived to wherever parts to get its perception.

limbic system, is soo nice part of it. FYI its where our memory pass trough for the first time and also area of perception for our emotion. in a very emotional moment it do stored memory last longer, because its like two consecutive signal pass trough.

once more, limbic system is the culprit. connected to hypothalamus making our lives miserable. yes, for the palpitation, butterfly-ing stomach, cold feet and so bla bla physiologic. connected to pre frontal cortex, reponsible for the sadness anger. and lastly cingulate gyrus, hedonia or anhedonia.  hay hale limbic system!

but we, me, know better. its our heart to decide. whether it is worth memorable enough, consiously or most of the time unconsiously. fun enough? wonderful? flabbergasted? terryfiying? disgusting? painfull?

dan saya percaya, puing memori punya mozaiknya sendiri. ia memang sengaja diingat, memang harus diingat dengan caranya masing masing, dengan rasanya. dan tanpa sadar mendefinisikan mozaik diri . it define who you are. rapuh? mungkin. namun indah dengan kumpulan rasa, kalau bukan indah mungkin dinamis.

12:53 and the sound really stop. looking in to mozaicme now, it's been added several shape and color most of it the un thinkable one, unwanted also. to summarize, 2012 pieces was un expectable.

 But it is me, in mozaicme. 

this memory if me, now, i shall remember and try not to make the same pieces come back. enough of having it.

January, 2013

consiously aware of the same sky above, unpromise matter, different rooftop.

blame retrival! 

O R G.

organisasi

Dani Ferdian

komponen organisasi:
manfaat

organisasi vs komunitas : organisasi ada administrasi yang jelas. regulasi dan sistem
managerial

ketua?
#1 KEPEMIMPINAN. its all about influence
a leader should be the one who can hold the strongest. the show must go on with all efforts.
2. komunikasi
know how to communicate. make understand. paham, satu persepsi. not merely "know"
3. kerjasama
4. manajemen waktu
gurita organisasi.
FOKUS!》 prestatif》image organisasi
co: anak p dan k, image nya apa? ga bisa belajar? is it true? why?
  pendpro cumlaude cumlaude? kenapa ga semua senat aja punya image seperti itu?
5. berfikir logis
reasoning ke orang yang ga ngerti lebih gampang
logic is a common sense even for those who are "higher" or "lower" than you
6. manajemen konflik
because this is a relationship. between people. between emotion. between self trashold
7. tanggung jawab
dosa, kebersalahan, its all yours. dont deny
8. kekeluargaan
its a must. MUST MAKE THIS HAPPEN. but keep on believe. it will. with your own way,
nilai jual organisasi. acceleration wild card

kegelisahan》 makanya belajar.

siapa yang Ia bidik, dialah yang Allah taksirkan mampu

AMANAH "harus ditepati.."
janjinya sama Allah

beramal sama ilmu.
ilmu tanoa amal bohong, amal tanpa ilmu kosong

ya allah, i really want to go aboard. in order to fullfill the sunnah, in order to escape. please, amin

#tilas penyejuk jiwa

bismillah.

entri kali ini semata mata hanya sebagai penyejuk jiwa pribadi. embun yang direguk menalarkan hasrat cinta di hati. agar senantiasa anggun bersemi.

" dan jika Allah menimpakan suatu bencana kepadamu, maka tidak ada yang dapat menghilangkannya kecuali dia. Dan jika Allah menghendaki kebajikan bagi kamu  maka tidak ada yang dapat menolak  karunia Nya. Dia memberikan kebaikan kebada siapa saja yang Dia kehendaki diantara hamba hambaNya. Dia Maha Pengampun Maha Penyayang"

 QS Yunus 107