Senin, 31 Desember 2012

00:00

till the last duar sound, finally i'm holding my self. yaaay
limbic system rules, sooca case 5 : 

memory is thought , stimulation of certain parts of MY nervous system at the same time. encoding then storing lastly retrieving. 
life is series of event, action, accumulation of feeling that we experience ourself. we do memorize it we called it declarative  memory. 

this kind of memory, is the long term one. the one that we can remember life long, spread out in a wide range of our brain. retrieving this also not difficult. may come from nowhere and suddenly synapse started to runnning like crazy in the cortex where it is stored and in no time arrived to wherever parts to get its perception.

limbic system, is soo nice part of it. FYI its where our memory pass trough for the first time and also area of perception for our emotion. in a very emotional moment it do stored memory last longer, because its like two consecutive signal pass trough.

once more, limbic system is the culprit. connected to hypothalamus making our lives miserable. yes, for the palpitation, butterfly-ing stomach, cold feet and so bla bla physiologic. connected to pre frontal cortex, reponsible for the sadness anger. and lastly cingulate gyrus, hedonia or anhedonia.  hay hale limbic system!

but we, me, know better. its our heart to decide. whether it is worth memorable enough, consiously or most of the time unconsiously. fun enough? wonderful? flabbergasted? terryfiying? disgusting? painfull?

dan saya percaya, puing memori punya mozaiknya sendiri. ia memang sengaja diingat, memang harus diingat dengan caranya masing masing, dengan rasanya. dan tanpa sadar mendefinisikan mozaik diri . it define who you are. rapuh? mungkin. namun indah dengan kumpulan rasa, kalau bukan indah mungkin dinamis.

12:53 and the sound really stop. looking in to mozaicme now, it's been added several shape and color most of it the un thinkable one, unwanted also. to summarize, 2012 pieces was un expectable.

 But it is me, in mozaicme. 

this memory if me, now, i shall remember and try not to make the same pieces come back. enough of having it.


January, 2013
consiously aware of the same sky above, unpromise matter, different rooftop.
blame retrival! 


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